My Teachers

Happy teachers day to all teachers in the world!

I remember one of the advert in UK during year 1998's Teachers Day Celebration. Postcards with questions like 'Who is your favourite doctor?', who is your favourite accountant?'..etc. The there's a small note below 'nobody forget their favourite teacher'. I still kept those postcards.

So, sempena Teachers day, i would like to write down here all my favourite teachers which will always be in my heart.
1. My primary school teacher, Cikgu Zainun Muda. Who gave me shoes to replace the 'very2 lusuh n berlubang' shoes when i'm in standard 2. She was the first to cal me 'mek kete' coz i have a curly hair. She borrowed me her daughters gown when i don't have one to wear during a nursery rhyme contest.

2. Cikgu Che Wan Ibrahim Che Wan Ngah, whom passed away last year, who was soo kind hearted, which i can't explain in my limited writing ability.

3. Cikgu Zarina Jupri, my homeroom teacher at MRSM Jelebu; whom are so motherly, and understanding.

4. Cikgu Umairah n Cikgu Norani at MRSM KT, who gave me Add Math Textbook where i'm the only student who cannot afford to buy one (x sampai hati nak mintak duit ngan ayah).

5. Cikgu Mohd Zainun, who make me love Chemistry sooo much and who make our school years a very exciting one.

tu aje daaa...yg lelain ingat juga..tp x leh la nak tulis panjang2.

Shooting lesson

I had a shooting lesson/ training today. The only half an hour training as a preparation for our Shooting contest this Saturday. It was my first time handling a revolver and a pistol. Mmg kecut habis segala anggota badan. Panas perut dan segala macam peluh abis keluar. Mmg giler punya experience. Rasa takut sgt n gemuruh sgt. But i manage to shoot 4 plate out of 17, which is good for a beginner. What make it exciting is i can beat most of my male collegues. Since i did not wore an ear mulf, a become temporary deaf after the training. Don't know when it will be return to normal.

Hari ni aku tukar pic. Taruk panoramic view of liverpool city. Entah kenapa tetiba rasa rindu pd tempat belajar. Tempat jauh yang dikenang. Ajak abg buat plan simpan duit utk jelajah dunia pulak lepas ni. Tp make sure ye En Zul..kena ke Mekah dulu ye!

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Minggu lepas Ariz guna istilah salah lagi. Dia selesema so banyak laa taik idung yg diproses selepas bangun pagi. Dlm perjalanan dia duk korek2 idung dia. Dia cakap la..mama, Ayeh berak. So aku buat2 terkejut n tanya, Ayeh berak betul ke? dia cakap, Ayeh berak hidung.. hampeh!

My Mother

'Say Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah. Thank you Allah, for my mother'
I love this song..Ariz too..it reminds me of the love my mother had to me and mine to Ariz.

Coz today is mothers day, so i'd love to jot down something about my mother, whom i love a adore soo much. I called my mom as 'Cik' a typical Terengganu word for 'mak'. Cik will be 57 this July. i had not much time to write, so i stay back until six today to do this. I dunno how to express my feeling, my gratitude to all things that she has done to me. I only truly realized how hard her life is, how much her sacrifice to us all when i myself become a mom. And times the hardship to 14 (not included miscarriages).

I cannot imagine how she and dad raise us with all the difficulties that we faced at that time. Mom is a fulltime housewife while dad are a farmer. Not a successfull one. If my family were discovered by Bersamamu crew, i believe we will be aired on bersamamu slot in TV3. Imagine me weeing near he river with short pant on the head..haha..

To make things worst for mom, she had inherited a macular degeneration eye problem, which make her eyesights becoming worse and worse each day. At the age of 45, she had only about 20% vision left. We will 'pimpin' her everytime she went to any place unfamiliar to her. I don't know how she manage to do her household chores.

Apart from the above, mom is always the tough one at heart. i had seen tears in dad's eyes many times (especially when we get offers to further studies and ayah dun know where he can get the money) but never seen it on mom's. Ayah cries a lot when my brother died (just before i fly to UK) but Cik just beristighfar. The only times i saw her crying is bila dia dah tua2 ni..berpisah ngan adik bongsu aku, Amirul. Whatever difficulties she faced; anak2 buat perangai, kemiskinan, family problems, etc..she just kept things for herself and also to god. Kekadang kami risau coz dia pendam semua dlm hati.

Jasa cik pada kami, aku khususnya..she raised us to become 'orang'. She give us good education, teach us manners, love us unconditionally, teach us live the hard ways. Tak mungkin terbalas segalanya. Cik, I LOVE YOU.

Ujian Kehidupan

Kebelakangan ni aku mcm mak migrain je memikirkan hal orang. Masalah juga aku ni, takde masalah cari masalah. tp nak wat camne kan dah mmg mcm ni. Tak nak pikir pun teringat jugak. Syukurlah saat ini aku belum diuji dgn ujian2 yang teruk, masih ada ruang untuk membantu memberatkan kepala dgn masalah orang lain.

Begitulah rencah kehidupan, selagi bernyawa, selagi tu lah kita di medan ujian. Ujian kesenangan, ujian kesusahan. Ujian kesenangan selalunya mengalpakan kita. Seronok, sehingga lupa yg sebenarnya kita sedang diuji. Selalu menjadikan kita gagal tanpa sedar. Ujian kesusahan mungkin menjdkan kita keluh kesah. kekadang makin dekat dengan Allah tp kekadang ada yang seakan tidak redha dengan ujian tersebut. Sehingga sampai ke titik akhir pentas kehidupan dunia, selagi itulah hidup kita takkan lari dr ujian yg telah ditetapkan.

Hati aku amat tersentuh bila balik kampung baru2 ini. Seorang kawan adik, jiran kami juga, yg mengidap penyakit gila yg diwarisi dr ayah diorg, malangnya si abang tu seperti tidak redha dgn dugaan tu. Kata cik, selalu dia menjerit sorang2 pastu cakap yang alangkah baiknya kalau dia jd sipolan si polan. Terus ketika itu aku tersedar yg rupanya ringan aje dugaan yang Allah timpakan kepada kakak serta ibu mahupun adik2ku. Tersedar sekejap. Terasa alangkah syukurnya dgn apa yang ada. Teringat kembali kisah2 ujian keperitan hidup yang pernah aku baca sebelum2 ini. ujian seorang bapa yg terbakar kesemua anaknya dlm kebakaran rumah, ujian seorang wanita yg kematian suami tanpa pekerjaan, ujian seorang insan yang cacat takde kaki tangan, ujian seorang isteri yang dapat suami perangai macam setan, ujian anak2 merempat di jalan chowkit yang terpaksa keluar bilik semata2 nak bagi mak dia servis pelanggan, ujian seorang ibu yg semua anak2 jd bohsia dan hisap dadah..mcm2 kisah ujian yg kadang dengan hanya baca kisah mereka pun dah rasa x mampu nak tanggung.

Mcm2 lah kalau nak di senaraikan, dan macam2 lagi kalau nak ditolong pikirkan. Takde kesudahannya. Lalu kesimpulan ni hadir dlm benak fikiran aku. REDHA. Kalau kita redha je dengan apa pun yang datang, insyaAllah hilang segala keluh kesah dan migrain segala. Bila REDHA, rasa ringan sikit kepala, boleh tdo lena sikit sambil memikirkan solution kpd masalah adik beradikku......hmmmmmm.....